So much in 6 months...

There are days when it seems like it was a lifetime ago and others where it seems like a few hours... My heart is hurting today (and maybe I should have worn my waterproof mascara...) because today seems to be one of those hours days.  6 months ago today I lost my baby girl.  I sit and wonder some days what she would be like.  Would she be just like her brother?! There are days that I look at him and see her!  I was listening to Klove on the way to work this morning and they were telling the story of Kolby {here is the link if you would care to read about it.}  (http://www.angelfire.com/hero/kolbysstory/)  This is the story that Wayne found on the Internet when he was doing research on Mckenzie's condition.  It REALLY helped us!!  So was it a coincidence that God had me hear it today of all days?!  I think not!  Thank you Lord for letting me know that you are still there for me even though we have had so much loss in the last 6 months.  :0)

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The Abram Family said…
I can't imagine what goes through your head every day! :( I continue to pray for you and know that you will be able to see your sweet angel again some day!
May 24, 2011 at 2:40 PM
Bri and John said…
shawna, I'm finally back on the wagon with my blogging, and I decided to catch up on all my friends' blogs that I hadn't read in a while... and of course read through a few pages of yours :). Then seeing this post made my heart a little heavy as I remembered the beautiful memories I have of your sweet little girl. She was an angel, indeed. And I fell in love with her in just the few moments I got to spend with her! I cant wait to see her in heaven again someday :))
June 11, 2011 at 10:08 PM
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